been having some serious regrets about something.. very regretful.. sigh.. but it seems i'm not the only who is regreting... wad to do.. we shall all carry on.. go through with it for the sake of everyone.. friends are the ones who will get you through tough times.. when you really dont want to do it.. we shall be there to bug each other.. cheers!
3 times before i was disappointed.. dis time.. n0t so much.. sad for a couple of minutes maybe.. but i'm actually happy.. things have really changed.. i wish i could add in 'for the better' behind the previous sentence... but its d opposite..
jus read aishah's blog.. people do change.. very drastically in some cases.. its very infortunate.. but thats what's happening.. one title does not change anything.. we respect people for who they are.. not what they are called.. if one expects to be respected jus because of the title..sorry to disappointed but that isn't the way humans work.. respect others n they will do the same to you.
feel very blessed to have friends like dis.. thx to lee pin, aishah, irfah(auntie!), murni(mummy!).. went for dinner yest.. talked.. had fun.. destressed together.. cheer up everyone.. things happen for a reason.. at least i believe they do.. you can learn lessons from everything that happens to you.. only if you want to.. every hard time you go through brings you sweet memories.. n great frens.. who believe in you.. both stay with you for a very long time.. that's more than one can ask for.. so everyone.. dun be worked up bout bad times.. they bring treasure with them... u just need to seek it out.. good luck with the treasure hunting! =)
y am i not scolding people when i need to? hahahha.. i yell n shout n scream at primary sch kids but n0t at sec sch pple?! interesting!! seems i always find a reason not to.. ahaha.. but really.. sometimes i don't see a need.. things seem to be solved for n0w.. shall see how tmr.. hope i'm all smiles tmr... dat would be go0d! yea!
hmmm... jus did some personality test thingy... some jobs dat i might possibly go for....(those i might consider are in colour.. hahah)
Ad writer, Announcer, Auctioneer, Author, Auto dealer, Book seller, Broker, Bus driver, Cartoonist, Commentator, Concierge, Correspondent, Courier, Debator, Dispatcher, Distrubutor, Driver, Franchiser, Illustrator, Impersonator, Information analyst, Information clerk, Interviewer, Journalist, Librarian, Linguist, Mail carrier, Manicurist, Media personnel. Mime, Mimic, Narrator, News commentator, Novelist, Orator, Playwright, Printer, Reporter, Speech pathologist, Spokesperson, Taxi driver, Transcriber, Truck driver, Weather forecaster
t0 princess: g0 n see a doc... dun be lazy... pleassee... thank you.. =)
n0w i n0e wad comes first.. n0 qualms about it anymore.. just one little difference in someone's life is more than enough for me..
ok.. g0tta b0ok in tmr... or should i say later.. going unit first... den lunch.. den off to hq i go.. will be back on tuesday.. hehe.. byes pple.. =)
Monday, November 28, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
3 magic words..
very tired.. been shooting d whole weekend.. monday as well.. n0nstop.. but.. at least we're done for n0w.. for dis weekend..
1000 bucks....?! she must joking.... very funny.. hahahha.. we r goners!
quite c0ol d way we spent dis few days without much food(one meal a day), without a com, without a hp( cos mine is gone case.. n we couldn't find time to use it anyway) and always got carsick after sitting in d van.. haha.. funny but h0rrid at dat time..
d kids seemed much m0re warmed up (thank god!) met even m0re irritating kids hu made all of us feel like bashing their heads on d wall! they messed up d house trying to catch koi!! my goodness! lucky none died! or we'll have to start selling all our stuff to pay for the ever-increasing budget! o0o.. but it was fun feeding d fishys tho... maybe if i ever haf d $$ i shall rear koi jus so dat i can feed them n haf fun! hahahhah! they'll be obese in n0 time! bwahahaha!!
haven been meeting some of my deadlines(oh shoots!) thx to d com dying on me at d worst possible time n my fone joins it too... but at least its usable n0w.. yea.. =)
regreting joining something.. but its a tad too late.. hmmmmmm....
shud i stay or shud i go.. (dreamz fm.. hehe)
1000 bucks....?! she must joking.... very funny.. hahahha.. we r goners!
quite c0ol d way we spent dis few days without much food(one meal a day), without a com, without a hp( cos mine is gone case.. n we couldn't find time to use it anyway) and always got carsick after sitting in d van.. haha.. funny but h0rrid at dat time..
d kids seemed much m0re warmed up (thank god!) met even m0re irritating kids hu made all of us feel like bashing their heads on d wall! they messed up d house trying to catch koi!! my goodness! lucky none died! or we'll have to start selling all our stuff to pay for the ever-increasing budget! o0o.. but it was fun feeding d fishys tho... maybe if i ever haf d $$ i shall rear koi jus so dat i can feed them n haf fun! hahahhah! they'll be obese in n0 time! bwahahaha!!
haven been meeting some of my deadlines(oh shoots!) thx to d com dying on me at d worst possible time n my fone joins it too... but at least its usable n0w.. yea.. =)
regreting joining something.. but its a tad too late.. hmmmmmm....
shud i stay or shud i go.. (dreamz fm.. hehe)
how gullible we were when we were young.. its a totally diff story now.. 2.5 yrs.. can make such a difference.. its funny how we dread doing something.. but after its all over, we reminse bout it n laff at d happy memories.. funny human nature.. really wish i can be stuck in d past
i'm off.. to go start on 2nd jigsaw.. haha.. i get stressed trying to destress.. (^^,)
but at least i like d end product.. haha.. byes..
PS: btw, d 3 magic words are its a wrap! dun anyhow think..
Friday, November 18, 2005
movie + puzzle! =)
just back from watching The Exorcism Of Emily Rose with inez n ain.. they kept closing their eyes! haha.. nice m0vie.. painful to watch cos of the contortions actually.. but i like d courtroom way of telling the story.. yupp.. =)
had a nice start to the day.. but was ruined a little once i reached school tho.. so what if i need to do the project.. it doesn't mean i can't have my own life.. u cant stop me from going to work.. or from going for my cca.. its my choice.. too bad for u.. irritating guy.. thank god there was ex-pro after dat.. was so fun watching d avant garde m0vies.. n we kope d film like n0one' s business.. hahah siew kee leong is s0 c0ol..
been kinda busy with werk n sch n home stuff.. mum's been at home d past 2 days s0 got motivation to go home early.. hahahha.. if n0t d house will be empty as usual till after 7... so lonely la... i soo dislike dat feeling sometimes.. bot a jigsaw puzzle other day.. been working on it for bout 2 days... its almost done.. great achievement considering that its a 1000 pcs puzzle n dat i've been working during d 2 days i did d puzzle.. yeaah!
tuesday's sch was horrrendous.. n0 names but it was supposed to smart kids and all... omg! s0 horrible! refused to do anything... n scolded each other vulgar words.. tsk tsk tsk... really nth to say man.. really thankful to have cadets like wad i have... haha if they were like d kids .. i will really faint..
i really wonder what i am doing here sometimes.. am i still needed? shud i go elsewhere.. what's d point of doing it half-heartedly... when u dun enjoy something as much as u used to.. it seems to become a burden.. i dun wan it to become like dat.. sighh.. maybe its time to start to stop.. maybe.. possible.. could be.. i duno..
"do you ever feel like breaking down
do you ever feel out of place
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you
do you ever wanna run away
do you lock yourself in your room
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like
to be like me....."
oh well... shall go off to do my jigsaw puzzle.. adios amigos...
had a nice start to the day.. but was ruined a little once i reached school tho.. so what if i need to do the project.. it doesn't mean i can't have my own life.. u cant stop me from going to work.. or from going for my cca.. its my choice.. too bad for u.. irritating guy.. thank god there was ex-pro after dat.. was so fun watching d avant garde m0vies.. n we kope d film like n0one' s business.. hahah siew kee leong is s0 c0ol..
been kinda busy with werk n sch n home stuff.. mum's been at home d past 2 days s0 got motivation to go home early.. hahahha.. if n0t d house will be empty as usual till after 7... so lonely la... i soo dislike dat feeling sometimes.. bot a jigsaw puzzle other day.. been working on it for bout 2 days... its almost done.. great achievement considering that its a 1000 pcs puzzle n dat i've been working during d 2 days i did d puzzle.. yeaah!
tuesday's sch was horrrendous.. n0 names but it was supposed to smart kids and all... omg! s0 horrible! refused to do anything... n scolded each other vulgar words.. tsk tsk tsk... really nth to say man.. really thankful to have cadets like wad i have... haha if they were like d kids .. i will really faint..
i really wonder what i am doing here sometimes.. am i still needed? shud i go elsewhere.. what's d point of doing it half-heartedly... when u dun enjoy something as much as u used to.. it seems to become a burden.. i dun wan it to become like dat.. sighh.. maybe its time to start to stop.. maybe.. possible.. could be.. i duno..
"do you ever feel like breaking down
do you ever feel out of place
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you
do you ever wanna run away
do you lock yourself in your room
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like
to be like me....."
oh well... shall go off to do my jigsaw puzzle.. adios amigos...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
back..
hmm... d last entry was somwtime ago.. sooooo.. lemme recap on the things that happened for everyday after d last entry.. if i can rmbr.. its g0nna be a l0o0oo0o0o0o0o0o0og entry..
29th oct
i went for ipc atc only in d evening.. went in together with vivi and melvin.. very fun.. went for solo nite trail with pei en.. very c0ol.. well.. yea.. oh n ry was there! haha been super l0ng since i last saw him... =)
30th oct
was at ubin till late aftern0on.. reached jetty at like 5 plus or 6 i tink.. met emily there! haha she is super sun burnt! chao tah maam! n yiteng as well! kim peng was at some other c0rner s0 i din see him.. haha.. went f0r dinner at tampines with everyone.. me n zak n jiaying n pei en.. at d same table.. quite crappy.. haha.. me n zak n pei en were d last to leave.. pei en t0ok bus.. we t0ok d train.. zak fell asleep on my shoulder.. n her head keep dr0ping! n d nice me had t0 prop her head up all d way from tampines to jurong east... d head is tiny but heavy! hahahaha
31st oct
eve of deepavali.. woke up late tho cos of d previous day.. mum went to market n left her keys there... tried ringing d d0orbell but d piggy me din hear a thing..! haha po0r mum had to go backtrack n find her keys again.. did housework again.. hang curtains.. clean d house.. wipe mirrors.. change bedsheets.. i tink dats all.. den went to fetch piggy(cousin).. n went to serango0n rd with mum c0s she couldn't handle piggy.. d last time i went there was like bout at least 1 yr ago.. haha cant stand it after all dat hmtl lessons! yucks! bot ALOT of fire sparklers.. like boxes n boxes of it.. i like d pop pop thing tho.. used to play with my bro as a little kid.. brought back memories.. =) bot some clothes.. haha.. forced to buy a punjabi suit.. its nice.. but i doubt i will wear it often.. oh wells... well.. walked ard there till 2 am plus plus.. by den dad was there n he drove back home.. reached only at bout 3 i tink.. ahhaha fun.. =D
1st nov
deepavali.. woke up in d m0rning f0r once.. heehee.. (^^,) watched tarzan with piggy.. in d end everone was watching too.. such a cute cartoon.. lurve d music.. aunt came.. along with cousins.. got dragged ard by them.. o0o. did i mention dat i c0oked.. hahah n people liked it! hahahaha!! amazing! play with piggy somemore.. den he went home at bout 11 plus.. po0r kid had sch.. haha
2nd nov
first day of sch for the sem.. had black n white.. kept dozing off.. mei ping was stuck in d middle with me n qi an falling asleep on both sides.. haha... ended early.. went for a specs meeting at sim that never happened.. oh wells.. had specs b for a while n den a meeting with heng han.. nth much.. den discuss stuff with adeline n mei ping n ended up leaving sch only at 7 plus.. sianz..
3rd nov
hari raya puasa.. hahahah went to rose's house.. d other time we went there was in yr 1.. hahah adeline n mei ping were saying i'm too tall..!! muhahahaha c0s i happened to wear heels.. n i l0ok so diff.. hahaha.. ate.. slacked.. played with rose's soft toys.. there was even kermit d frog! super funny!! haha... den left at bout 7... went home.. piggy was back cos he din haf sch on fri... hahah
4th nov
was supposed to have class at 9.. digital effects.. woke up on time.. but felt sian.. asked mum if i shud go or skip.. s0 c0ol! she asked me to skip since its gonna be only bout an hr or so of class.. hahah... funn!! slacked at home again.. piggy, mum n dad were all home.. so quite fun.. =) bro had to go to work.. arww...
5th nov
campcraft selection test.. saw some powerhouses.. wow! impressed by quite a few tiny people.. hahah n d fastest person is like super fast.. supposed to go for ipc after dat.. but had to decide on the teams.. so went to tbp with yn to eat n discuss at d same time.. well.. wad du u noe! we ended up staying there till they closed! mulled over d timings n names.. drank alot of tea.. digressed in d last hr or so.. yn cant keep her hands still once she starts..! hahah went home had a h0rrible headache...
6th nov
hmm.. oh!! rmbred! went to zak's house!! hahaha funny!! watched white chicks.. i tink i m a very horribly disorganised person... den.. at night.. well.. wrote something.. spent 4 hrs .. till 4 am..felt very mean... sigh..oh wells..
7th nov
ended up late for training.. too little sleep.. d panadol din help in d waking up either.. hahaha.. walked out of crex feel absolutely fine.. reached redhill feeling slightly unwell.. took mrt n could hardly stand properly..took 242 n broke out in cold sweat on a super cold bus.. puked.. horrible.. dragged myself home n mum say i look like ghost.. den she left for werk.. n i went to lalaland.. woke up a while later n rushed off to meet richard. had a briefing for the trail thingy...a little scary.. since i dun0 esplanade well..
8th nov
woke up in d m0rning.. went to boon lay int before realising there wasn't any morning shift! hahaha.. blur.. den went back home n sleep again.. woke up and set off to esplanade.. mum called jus as i was leaving the house.. she asked if i was awake n wanted to meet her for lunch.. cos she went to see d doc earlier.. felt bad bout saying i cant.. sighh.. dun0 y but i tink i wanna spend more time at home nowadays.. i tink i miss my family.. even tho i see them everyday.. its a weird feeling.. dun0 h0w to explain.. well.. went to esplanade.. did a short tour.. d kids came.. omg! they were s0 s0 s0 so so so so so notti!! esp d boys! kept fighting.. n running off.. my grp had dis boy .. dion.. i tink i called out his name at least 50 times in dat 2 hrs trail.. i tink he got some attention problem.. a little pitiful but at dat moment jus wanted to tie him up n leave him in some coener den pick him up at d end..! even d class teacher gave up on d kids! everyone taking the kids ended up shouting at them.. wow.. i was fiercer to them then my own cadets.. by d time reached home.. was exhausted..!
9th nov
had black n white again.. reached sch 15 mins before class.. but din wanna go in.. waited for mei ping n qian.. they came very late.. went in to class alf an hr late in d end.. hahah learnt photo developing.. very fun.. but d chemicals are s0o0 stinky! smelt something like hair salon only worse..! got my 3 rolls of film.. yay! but haven b0ok out camera yet.. shukor was complaining dat pple not returning d cam.. hahaha.. n he was dancing n all ... funny guy.. came home n slacked den went to change fone.. thx to my bro.. hahaha such a good boy! decided to get next week.. went for dinner.. end of day...
10th nov
that is today.. wow.. it was a packed day.. had work at esplanade again.. reached there at like 7.40am.. very early.. chatted with the rest.. hahah richard was saying esther( d boss) was impressed with me.... she tot i wud be bullied n all from wad she saw at d briefing.. cos i din tok and all.. but d first day.. was pretty good.. for super notti kids.. apparently i'm quite firm with them.. hahaha yeahh!! at least i din screw up anything..! marymount girls (pri 4) were like angels compared to saps.. but they were comical with their freezing actions and little pouts.. they act as if they never saw a shop before n plastered themselves to the glass window.. hahah very amusing to watch actually.. got along well with the rest... quite funny.. den rushed for np.. ALOT more improvement to be done.. teams were just announced.. good luck to them.. tokked to one of them.. till i was late for class.. left crez at 2.15.. class starts at 2pm.. took cab.. n0 choice.. watched 7 avant garde films.. fell asleep once or twice.. ended 1.5 hrs early.. hahah siew kee liong d best! jeremy n yardin.. super funny... jokers.. jeremy's fingers are so long until i tink mine look like dwarf hands!!
yupp.. dats all i did for every single day since d previous entry.. its a super long entry .. seriously.. okay.. i shall end off here... headache is still there tho.. from last sat.. tea n numbers dun mix well.. a painful leson learnt... hahha.. okay.. shall go write letter to stella.. dun0 where i put my previous one i wrote.. wh0ops..
29th oct
i went for ipc atc only in d evening.. went in together with vivi and melvin.. very fun.. went for solo nite trail with pei en.. very c0ol.. well.. yea.. oh n ry was there! haha been super l0ng since i last saw him... =)
30th oct
was at ubin till late aftern0on.. reached jetty at like 5 plus or 6 i tink.. met emily there! haha she is super sun burnt! chao tah maam! n yiteng as well! kim peng was at some other c0rner s0 i din see him.. haha.. went f0r dinner at tampines with everyone.. me n zak n jiaying n pei en.. at d same table.. quite crappy.. haha.. me n zak n pei en were d last to leave.. pei en t0ok bus.. we t0ok d train.. zak fell asleep on my shoulder.. n her head keep dr0ping! n d nice me had t0 prop her head up all d way from tampines to jurong east... d head is tiny but heavy! hahahaha
31st oct
eve of deepavali.. woke up late tho cos of d previous day.. mum went to market n left her keys there... tried ringing d d0orbell but d piggy me din hear a thing..! haha po0r mum had to go backtrack n find her keys again.. did housework again.. hang curtains.. clean d house.. wipe mirrors.. change bedsheets.. i tink dats all.. den went to fetch piggy(cousin).. n went to serango0n rd with mum c0s she couldn't handle piggy.. d last time i went there was like bout at least 1 yr ago.. haha cant stand it after all dat hmtl lessons! yucks! bot ALOT of fire sparklers.. like boxes n boxes of it.. i like d pop pop thing tho.. used to play with my bro as a little kid.. brought back memories.. =) bot some clothes.. haha.. forced to buy a punjabi suit.. its nice.. but i doubt i will wear it often.. oh wells... well.. walked ard there till 2 am plus plus.. by den dad was there n he drove back home.. reached only at bout 3 i tink.. ahhaha fun.. =D
1st nov
deepavali.. woke up in d m0rning f0r once.. heehee.. (^^,) watched tarzan with piggy.. in d end everone was watching too.. such a cute cartoon.. lurve d music.. aunt came.. along with cousins.. got dragged ard by them.. o0o. did i mention dat i c0oked.. hahah n people liked it! hahahaha!! amazing! play with piggy somemore.. den he went home at bout 11 plus.. po0r kid had sch.. haha
2nd nov
first day of sch for the sem.. had black n white.. kept dozing off.. mei ping was stuck in d middle with me n qi an falling asleep on both sides.. haha... ended early.. went for a specs meeting at sim that never happened.. oh wells.. had specs b for a while n den a meeting with heng han.. nth much.. den discuss stuff with adeline n mei ping n ended up leaving sch only at 7 plus.. sianz..
3rd nov
hari raya puasa.. hahahah went to rose's house.. d other time we went there was in yr 1.. hahah adeline n mei ping were saying i'm too tall..!! muhahahaha c0s i happened to wear heels.. n i l0ok so diff.. hahaha.. ate.. slacked.. played with rose's soft toys.. there was even kermit d frog! super funny!! haha... den left at bout 7... went home.. piggy was back cos he din haf sch on fri... hahah
4th nov
was supposed to have class at 9.. digital effects.. woke up on time.. but felt sian.. asked mum if i shud go or skip.. s0 c0ol! she asked me to skip since its gonna be only bout an hr or so of class.. hahah... funn!! slacked at home again.. piggy, mum n dad were all home.. so quite fun.. =) bro had to go to work.. arww...
5th nov
campcraft selection test.. saw some powerhouses.. wow! impressed by quite a few tiny people.. hahah n d fastest person is like super fast.. supposed to go for ipc after dat.. but had to decide on the teams.. so went to tbp with yn to eat n discuss at d same time.. well.. wad du u noe! we ended up staying there till they closed! mulled over d timings n names.. drank alot of tea.. digressed in d last hr or so.. yn cant keep her hands still once she starts..! hahah went home had a h0rrible headache...
6th nov
hmm.. oh!! rmbred! went to zak's house!! hahaha funny!! watched white chicks.. i tink i m a very horribly disorganised person... den.. at night.. well.. wrote something.. spent 4 hrs .. till 4 am..felt very mean... sigh..oh wells..
7th nov
ended up late for training.. too little sleep.. d panadol din help in d waking up either.. hahaha.. walked out of crex feel absolutely fine.. reached redhill feeling slightly unwell.. took mrt n could hardly stand properly..took 242 n broke out in cold sweat on a super cold bus.. puked.. horrible.. dragged myself home n mum say i look like ghost.. den she left for werk.. n i went to lalaland.. woke up a while later n rushed off to meet richard. had a briefing for the trail thingy...a little scary.. since i dun0 esplanade well..
8th nov
woke up in d m0rning.. went to boon lay int before realising there wasn't any morning shift! hahaha.. blur.. den went back home n sleep again.. woke up and set off to esplanade.. mum called jus as i was leaving the house.. she asked if i was awake n wanted to meet her for lunch.. cos she went to see d doc earlier.. felt bad bout saying i cant.. sighh.. dun0 y but i tink i wanna spend more time at home nowadays.. i tink i miss my family.. even tho i see them everyday.. its a weird feeling.. dun0 h0w to explain.. well.. went to esplanade.. did a short tour.. d kids came.. omg! they were s0 s0 s0 so so so so so notti!! esp d boys! kept fighting.. n running off.. my grp had dis boy .. dion.. i tink i called out his name at least 50 times in dat 2 hrs trail.. i tink he got some attention problem.. a little pitiful but at dat moment jus wanted to tie him up n leave him in some coener den pick him up at d end..! even d class teacher gave up on d kids! everyone taking the kids ended up shouting at them.. wow.. i was fiercer to them then my own cadets.. by d time reached home.. was exhausted..!
9th nov
had black n white again.. reached sch 15 mins before class.. but din wanna go in.. waited for mei ping n qian.. they came very late.. went in to class alf an hr late in d end.. hahah learnt photo developing.. very fun.. but d chemicals are s0o0 stinky! smelt something like hair salon only worse..! got my 3 rolls of film.. yay! but haven b0ok out camera yet.. shukor was complaining dat pple not returning d cam.. hahaha.. n he was dancing n all ... funny guy.. came home n slacked den went to change fone.. thx to my bro.. hahaha such a good boy! decided to get next week.. went for dinner.. end of day...
10th nov
that is today.. wow.. it was a packed day.. had work at esplanade again.. reached there at like 7.40am.. very early.. chatted with the rest.. hahah richard was saying esther( d boss) was impressed with me.... she tot i wud be bullied n all from wad she saw at d briefing.. cos i din tok and all.. but d first day.. was pretty good.. for super notti kids.. apparently i'm quite firm with them.. hahaha yeahh!! at least i din screw up anything..! marymount girls (pri 4) were like angels compared to saps.. but they were comical with their freezing actions and little pouts.. they act as if they never saw a shop before n plastered themselves to the glass window.. hahah very amusing to watch actually.. got along well with the rest... quite funny.. den rushed for np.. ALOT more improvement to be done.. teams were just announced.. good luck to them.. tokked to one of them.. till i was late for class.. left crez at 2.15.. class starts at 2pm.. took cab.. n0 choice.. watched 7 avant garde films.. fell asleep once or twice.. ended 1.5 hrs early.. hahah siew kee liong d best! jeremy n yardin.. super funny... jokers.. jeremy's fingers are so long until i tink mine look like dwarf hands!!
yupp.. dats all i did for every single day since d previous entry.. its a super long entry .. seriously.. okay.. i shall end off here... headache is still there tho.. from last sat.. tea n numbers dun mix well.. a painful leson learnt... hahha.. okay.. shall go write letter to stella.. dun0 where i put my previous one i wrote.. wh0ops..
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