sad day..

tdy i met people i haven seen in ages.. by that i mean a few years...
met a few cousins and some of my aunts..
went to my uncle's place to pay my respects..
it was such a hard thing to do i have to admit..


i've been to a few funerals before and still have not gotten used to the cries and wails of pple.. but this was just so different. there's nothing that could have prepared me for the sight of the little child lying as still as a statue.. her little eyes wide open as if she hasn't seen enough of the world.. her mouth formed into a little pout.. a garland on her neck and her sobbing parents just nearby.. this was the first look i had of the child.. my cousin.. a baby jus over 3 months old.. it was heartbreaking. but somehow i couldn't bring myself to cry.. it seemed wrong..


the entire day that i was there i was pondering over the same things.. and somehow i guess my little cousin's had a life better den any of the people there.. so much better den mine as well.. she may have been lived for only 3 short months but the amount of joy she had brought to those ard her was immeasurable.. as i heard pple exchange their sweet memories they treasured of her, it suddenly hit me that it was an extraordinary thing to be able to do so much in such a short time.. esp when she couldn't talk, walk or even do anything..

i wonder... when one day... my life is over... will it e the same? i believe not.. the only thing humans need to make people happy is their smiles.. not their speech, not their money, not their achievements.. just their smiles and love. but its getting rare to see that now..


there's a reason for each of us to be on this earth.. whether its to bring happiness or to hurt pple whatever it is that we do.. life is never predictable.. till yest i never even knew i had a new cousin.. now i say goodbye and farewell to her...

darini.. you may have had a short time here but you've done what i would never be able to do.. making every single person happy and not having anything that you regret..

where ever you are.. be in peace knowing that you've touched so many people in this life... i've never met you but i won't forget you my dear cousin..