i hate making choices!!!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#

ok i am really confused now...

i applied for a post in the police force, prisons and NIE..


n i got letters back from all three of them..


went for an interview for the NIE application..


den dat same day, the letter from SPF came asking me to go for the physical fitness tests and psychometric tests... i was considering it seriously cos well SPF isn't exactly my first choice.. i was praying for the letter from prisons to come... it did.. n i happily decided not to go for the SPF interview.. my prisons interview is on 17th may.. i was supposed to confirm with them if i m going in but i din call cos after all.. NIE is my first choice.. so i have been waiting for the letter of acceptance to arrive...


my dad just received it in the mail n gave it to me.. I am supposed to be happy rite..


dats the thing...


i don't feel overjoyed... not happy even... just very confused..



cos the briefing for the teaching job if i accept is on 18th may which is dis friday! but i have to work as an untrained teacher first.. if i accept this i start work on 25th july.. wow..! fast rite..



but i dun want it that way... i really really prefer that i go study in NIE first.. get properly trained.. before i go out n teach.. so dats my dilemma now...



spf interview is already long gone.. so dun bother bout it.. shud i choose prisons or shud i choose nie?



there's just one burning qn within me that i haven been able to answer no matter how i tink of an answer.. what if i go and i dun like it? what do i do?



HOWWW?!?!?!??!?





SOMEONE HELP!!!!